:)
finally. i had deceided to close my blog. n dis will be my last entry. :)lifes is always a full of ups and downs. :) i believe in retribution. do u? but i had learnt tt nth is fair. everything in this world is really unfair. but u have to accept ur life as it is.
i really dun understand y ppl want to be fake? it's a fate to know each other. betray.backstab. how could someone do such thgs to fren? i really dun understand. is this e' sth to spice up one's life? everyone is good in heart. dun u think so?
i once had depression and i nearly killed myself. it's ppl ard me caused it. a life wif no one love, no one care. hu will like it? how will u feel when u were e' victim and yet everyone care for e' person hu started everithg. how will u feel when u r sick and u hv to take care of urself n no one is there? i feel scared. i feel lonely. loneliness caused my depression. bt i managed to hide it well. i tried my best to force out e' laughter. forced e' smile. i tried my best to be good. but no one seems to noe wat's my intention.
anw. i tried my best to overcome everything. i said bye to my depression. i learnt to do things alone. all alone. although i still had it. bt i managed to overcome e' fear of loneliness. :)
i had been thinking. is life always like tt? why ppl can have a good life, rich life and me? maybe i'm realli a bad bad girl. :(
i personally think tt nth is right and wrong in life. if u think it's right. then it'll be right. but think twice before u do it and nv regret. ppl will always do think harshly and in e' end. regret in watever they had done. y should u regret when u 1st think tt it's right?
i'm not a person hu wan everithg to be perfect cuz i noe. nth is perfect. even a robot. there's still room for improvement. i like my life now. a simple and sweet one. :)
a family, a bf and a bunch if frens hu's always there for me.
life have to go on. pay more attention and show more love to ppl hu need it. :)
although my daddy dun really talk. but i know he care for us. mummy is like sister to me. mummy and both siss and me will tok tok and tok non stop. i'm happy tt e' cable tv is now in e' living room. everyone will watch at e' livin room together and not individually in our room. we talk more often.
dear is always there when i need him. i love him lots. but sometimes, he realli make me hate him. he made me laugh. he made me cry. he made me feel like i'm his princess but he too made me feel tt i'm nth. but i really enjoy every moment with him. couples will have quarrels i noe. but dear. dun u think tt we have far too much of quarreling?
sc and fish. although we dont contact much, we'll talk non stop when we meet up which is abt once in dunno how many mths. we'll tok and tok till we also didnt realise e' time. bt i realli enjoy talkin to u girls. i like to go out wif u all and of cuz e' guys.jr, gs,julian and of cuz ber. we'hv not meet up for long time liao. e' last time is at kenny roger. when is e' next? ktv session?
pals in DLA. e' craziest ppl i had known. do all crazy stuff with. not only crazy. sicko stuff too. slappin of each other. blah blah. stupid. but i like it. haha.. :) i always rmb after proj 1 and everione was back in sch. we r dam noisy and here come our sonny in monotone. "blah blah blah" and rainie laugh and "whooo's thaaattt laauggghinggg??". we like to disturb one another. but no one is angry. u guys brighten up my days in DLA. :)
chuang and wei. we hardly meet up. i think it had been a yr since we last meet up. but u guys are really my 'zhong shi ting zhong' haha.. :) hear me speak non stop throughout e' night. hear me complain. let me vent my anger. haha. :)
sharlyn. we didn contact since then. but thanx for bein there durin my dullest day. u r e' best person i ever seen.
eugene. i feel so bad when i call u. cuz most of e' time. i call u because i wanna ask u more abt hp. anw. we r frenz forever rite. :) so when are u settling down and find urself a gf? haha.. :)
to any other ppl.. i like my life being wif u all.. thanx. :)
simplefern
Saturday, April 22, 2006
updates
it's time for some updates... :) hahafinalli.. i had finished my torture durin itp.. anw.. had so much fun there wif e' rest.. except.. u noe.. :) anw.. i nv like e' ppl there.. they are bias.. bt hu cares.. it's e' end of my torture.. i'm free now..
went sentosa with shuk chun they all last sat.. it was fun.. bein pushed down into water.. sarah joined us.. haha.. :) fun fun day.. after tt..dear fetch me to go fish fish.. haha.. :) so funny.. e' whole dae.. we got only 1 miserable 1 fish. haha.. :)
sch start liao le.. soo sian.. proj start liao le..can die.. such a big site.. oh god.. anw.. i'll try to do my best.. :)
site visit burnt every single of us.. everyone become to tan now in class.. i got burnt twice!!
shoppin almost everydae after sch.. :)
went to ling's son full mth's celeb.. her son is so cute.. realli feel like pinchin him.. and he slp non stop.. ling told me when her husb ask her baby to look at mummy.. he'll slp.. haha.. soo cute.. had some time catch up wif some of them.. anw..we'll catch up soon again.. :)
it's sat again.. i can relax again..
and to some ppl out there.. i'd updated my blog liao ok.. :) take care..
simplefern
Saturday, March 11, 2006
i'm tire... almost everyday OT!! and i work till 8 ydae..
suddenly.. i feel e' loneliness in me..i also dunno y.. i realise i'm distant from many frenz.. no more crazy days...
met jr gs n julie for dinner on thu.. :) had a wonderful dinner.. saw audrey, peiwen, cecil they all makanin there too.. so qiao.. audrey's bdae.. happy bdae girl.. and we gave them calamari.. :) haha.. sooo fun.. and touched too.. julie treated me dinner for my bdae.. he shld had told me earlier so tt i can order e' most ex dish there... and when i got hm.. i received a parcel fr sc.. she got me ma yin yue re ji and some other stuff.. soo touched.. i wanted to buy tt cd for a long time bt it's out of stock.. :) u met her at ps oso.. bt she's wif her fren.. nvm.. on mon.. me her and fish will have out girls talk.. :)
i'm so tire ydae after work.. dear waited for me for an hr and 1/2.. i kana OT.. feel so bad.. stupid place i go to wif OT for everidae.. argh!! had dinner at esplanade.. i'm sooo hungry.. anw.. it's over.. i'll enjoy my weekend to e' fullest.. i'm goin cyclin wif dear later.. woo~hoo~ and IT fair... :) i wanna buy new digital cam.. :)
simplefern
everyday OT!! i can work fr 9 to almost 7 lor!! argh!!
currently startin on a proj at india.. and guess how much is e' place?? it's abt 300m sq!!
oh gosh.. and i had to summit my ideas on fri.. argh!!
was brainstormin for more ideas for e' citysquare shelter design.. bt nth comes in..
food at canteen are yucky and ex!! and we all decided to have our kococranch and milk lunch at e' pantry tml.. wahaha.. :)
i'm happy.. :) i finally can meet my dear old pals tml liao.. haha.. :)
take care all.. hope u guys enjoy ur itp.. :)
esp juan.. dun complain lar.. we have 27 more days to go.. haha.. :) jia you..
i didn realise till hai told me tt we have only 30 days of itp.. wooooo.. :) time will fly... :)
simplefern
had so much fun in days i went missing here.. :)
-----v dae celebration wif usuals.. :) fun fun.. had galera wif shuki and rainie.. :) yummy.. shop and shop and shop.. tok n tok n tok.. fun fun.. met mag and ash.. tok tok b4 par tor.. makan at chinatown as everywhere is PACKED!! den down to esplanade.. and ppl are sellin roses everywhere..
------steamboat wif claz.. yum yum.. and got a surprise cake from them.. :) real nice.. i love e' cake.. ahaha.. a belated bdae celebration.. well well... sooo touch esp when they sing bdae song.. i also dunno who they sing to... haha.. :) fun fun day wif crazy bnuch of ppl.. haha..
--------shoppin wif usuals!! fun fun.. :) missed e' KTV as sth went wrong.. :) well well.. shoppin b4 goin hm for dinner.. :) and they gave me a pendan.. nice nice.. had so much fun.. soo funny when they wanna me look into my bag.. -_-
-----------nite cycling wif clazz.. liew.. i cant imagine how much i had cycled!! from east coast to changi v and back to east coast!! time flies.. e' road seems never ending!! like wat umar says.. it's like alice in wonderland.. it's never ending.. haha.. :) bedok jetty was dam cold.. everyone was tired!! everyone fell aslp... it's a muz try!! haha..
sian sian.. i'm startin my ITP tml liao.. soo sian.. i dun like.. anw..time to slp.. nite all.. :)
and i'm lookin forward to meet my buddiessssssssssssssssssssss,,, wahahahahaha..... :)
~fernny~ take care all and all e' best my frenz for itp.. :) muack....... i miss u guys!!
simplefern
had fun cutting e' pizza.. but now.. diarrhea.. :(
anw.. to wat juan had commented.. well. most ppl are fake.. not all.. :) ok.. haha..
well well.. wonder wat will happen tml.. haiz... and i totalli agree wif watever sis had told me.. anw... let's c wat'll happen tml..
anw.. tml is valentine's dae.. wahaha.. :)
tulips tt dear gave me are growing.. it's dam long now.. it's like tulips sticking out of tt bouquet.. haha.. :) funny..
anw.. PST test tml.. time to study... :) happt v dae all.. :)
simplefern
wo bu xiang mei ge ten dou hu xiang zheng lun.. hu xiang tao yan dui fang.. wo zhi xiang mei ge ren kai kai xin xin de guo mei yi tian..wei se me yao you zhe me duo de dong xi fa shen ne? zhe jiu shi ren shen de qi fu ma?
simplefern
suddenly.. i feel e' loneliness in me..i also dunno y.. i realise i'm distant from many frenz.. no more crazy days...
met jr gs n julie for dinner on thu.. :) had a wonderful dinner.. saw audrey, peiwen, cecil they all makanin there too.. so qiao.. audrey's bdae.. happy bdae girl.. and we gave them calamari.. :) haha.. sooo fun.. and touched too.. julie treated me dinner for my bdae.. he shld had told me earlier so tt i can order e' most ex dish there... and when i got hm.. i received a parcel fr sc.. she got me ma yin yue re ji and some other stuff.. soo touched.. i wanted to buy tt cd for a long time bt it's out of stock.. :) u met her at ps oso.. bt she's wif her fren.. nvm.. on mon.. me her and fish will have out girls talk.. :)
i'm so tire ydae after work.. dear waited for me for an hr and 1/2.. i kana OT.. feel so bad.. stupid place i go to wif OT for everidae.. argh!! had dinner at esplanade.. i'm sooo hungry.. anw.. it's over.. i'll enjoy my weekend to e' fullest.. i'm goin cyclin wif dear later.. woo~hoo~ and IT fair... :) i wanna buy new digital cam.. :)
simplefern
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
tire!!
i'm so tire...everyday OT!! i can work fr 9 to almost 7 lor!! argh!!
currently startin on a proj at india.. and guess how much is e' place?? it's abt 300m sq!!
oh gosh.. and i had to summit my ideas on fri.. argh!!
was brainstormin for more ideas for e' citysquare shelter design.. bt nth comes in..
food at canteen are yucky and ex!! and we all decided to have our kococranch and milk lunch at e' pantry tml.. wahaha.. :)
i'm happy.. :) i finally can meet my dear old pals tml liao.. haha.. :)
take care all.. hope u guys enjoy ur itp.. :)
esp juan.. dun complain lar.. we have 27 more days to go.. haha.. :) jia you..
i didn realise till hai told me tt we have only 30 days of itp.. wooooo.. :) time will fly... :)
simplefern
Sunday, March 05, 2006
back back..
i'm back.. getting lazier to blog!! haha.. :) anw.. happy belated v dae to all.. :)had so much fun in days i went missing here.. :)
-----v dae celebration wif usuals.. :) fun fun.. had galera wif shuki and rainie.. :) yummy.. shop and shop and shop.. tok n tok n tok.. fun fun.. met mag and ash.. tok tok b4 par tor.. makan at chinatown as everywhere is PACKED!! den down to esplanade.. and ppl are sellin roses everywhere..
------steamboat wif claz.. yum yum.. and got a surprise cake from them.. :) real nice.. i love e' cake.. ahaha.. a belated bdae celebration.. well well... sooo touch esp when they sing bdae song.. i also dunno who they sing to... haha.. :) fun fun day wif crazy bnuch of ppl.. haha..
--------shoppin wif usuals!! fun fun.. :) missed e' KTV as sth went wrong.. :) well well.. shoppin b4 goin hm for dinner.. :) and they gave me a pendan.. nice nice.. had so much fun.. soo funny when they wanna me look into my bag.. -_-
-----------nite cycling wif clazz.. liew.. i cant imagine how much i had cycled!! from east coast to changi v and back to east coast!! time flies.. e' road seems never ending!! like wat umar says.. it's like alice in wonderland.. it's never ending.. haha.. :) bedok jetty was dam cold.. everyone was tired!! everyone fell aslp... it's a muz try!! haha..
sian sian.. i'm startin my ITP tml liao.. soo sian.. i dun like.. anw..time to slp.. nite all.. :)
and i'm lookin forward to meet my buddiessssssssssssssssssssss,,, wahahahahaha..... :)
~fernny~ take care all and all e' best my frenz for itp.. :) muack....... i miss u guys!!
simplefern
Monday, February 13, 2006
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:) juz came home fr lunch wif dear... :) had loveberry meal.. not bad..had fun cutting e' pizza.. but now.. diarrhea.. :(
anw.. to wat juan had commented.. well. most ppl are fake.. not all.. :) ok.. haha..
well well.. wonder wat will happen tml.. haiz... and i totalli agree wif watever sis had told me.. anw... let's c wat'll happen tml..
anw.. tml is valentine's dae.. wahaha.. :)
tulips tt dear gave me are growing.. it's dam long now.. it's like tulips sticking out of tt bouquet.. haha.. :) funny..
anw.. PST test tml.. time to study... :) happt v dae all.. :)
simplefern
Friday, February 10, 2006
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zu..wo bu xiang mei ge ten dou hu xiang zheng lun.. hu xiang tao yan dui fang.. wo zhi xiang mei ge ren kai kai xin xin de guo mei yi tian..wei se me yao you zhe me duo de dong xi fa shen ne? zhe jiu shi ren shen de qi fu ma?
simplefern
there's so much confllict!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! argh!!!!!!
most ppl were angry.. i'm not siding anyone.. bt it's sooo obvious..
UNFAIR!!
watever.. none of my business.. wonder how's tiff...... she's v angry and she's tokin to them......wonder wat they'll sae to her??
now den i noe.. if u went missing for a sem.. u'll still get to present.. tian li he zai?
haiz.. kana scolded my tay 2dae!! i'm so wu gu..
call jazz also kana... go toilet oso kana.. haiyo!! tian li he zai??
wei se me wei se me?????????
anw.. sorted thgs out wif tay and told him wat tiff and many of us were realli angry abt... he always tot we're angry wif him.....
i'm sooo tire of everithg.. i'm so stress now.. i dun wanna care wat happened there..
there's so many thgs happened dis few daes... broke down in class juz now.. i'm tire.. no one understand me.... thgs r not getting better...
didn slp well dis few daes... i'm dead.... i'm not as happy as you think... life is tough...... everyone is juz soooo fake.. u'll nv noe wat they'll do to u... argh!! they'll nv feel guilty of wat they'd done..... nv ever.. a leapord will nv change its spot.. totalli agree wif tt..
i realli dun understand how a person can do sth bad and can sae he/she didn do tt.. or push the blame on other ppl... i'm real disappointed wif her... she'll nv feel guilty....
we quarrelled again... :( argh.. shall not sae animore.. i'm not angryy animoree...
daddy takin his report 2dae.. wonder how is he.. hopefully everithg will be alrite.. :)
thanx mani ppl for ur concerns and regards to my dad.. :)
anw.. next thu.. we'r goin to glenn's hse for makan.. yum yum.. :) potluck... and many of us will be goin.. we'll hv fun.. :)
y is potluck call potluck? izzit becuz everi pot a person bring brings luck?? haha.. :) no content.. anw.. time to take a nap..
simplefern
most ppl were angry.. i'm not siding anyone.. bt it's sooo obvious..
UNFAIR!!
watever.. none of my business.. wonder how's tiff...... she's v angry and she's tokin to them......wonder wat they'll sae to her??
now den i noe.. if u went missing for a sem.. u'll still get to present.. tian li he zai?
haiz.. kana scolded my tay 2dae!! i'm so wu gu..
call jazz also kana... go toilet oso kana.. haiyo!! tian li he zai??
wei se me wei se me?????????
anw.. sorted thgs out wif tay and told him wat tiff and many of us were realli angry abt... he always tot we're angry wif him.....
i'm sooo tire of everithg.. i'm so stress now.. i dun wanna care wat happened there..
there's so many thgs happened dis few daes... broke down in class juz now.. i'm tire.. no one understand me.... thgs r not getting better...
didn slp well dis few daes... i'm dead.... i'm not as happy as you think... life is tough...... everyone is juz soooo fake.. u'll nv noe wat they'll do to u... argh!! they'll nv feel guilty of wat they'd done..... nv ever.. a leapord will nv change its spot.. totalli agree wif tt..
i realli dun understand how a person can do sth bad and can sae he/she didn do tt.. or push the blame on other ppl... i'm real disappointed wif her... she'll nv feel guilty....
we quarrelled again... :( argh.. shall not sae animore.. i'm not angryy animoree...
daddy takin his report 2dae.. wonder how is he.. hopefully everithg will be alrite.. :)
thanx mani ppl for ur concerns and regards to my dad.. :)
anw.. next thu.. we'r goin to glenn's hse for makan.. yum yum.. :) potluck... and many of us will be goin.. we'll hv fun.. :)
y is potluck call potluck? izzit becuz everi pot a person bring brings luck?? haha.. :) no content.. anw.. time to take a nap..
simplefern