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another week of e' yr... haiz.. tire!! 2005 comin to an end le!!presentation week.. sian.. thu my presentation.. can die sia..
soooo sian.. saw e' brief of next proj.. liew.. guess wen is e' submission?
it's 3rd feb 2006
n CNY is like.. 6 daes before!! wat e' hell..
how to celebrate? no mood le lor.. idiot idiot idiot!!
everione go take ang bao.. n i can onli.. think abt e' proj!! wat e'
watever sky garden? shit lar.. another rooftop again!!
bt dis is a proj tt has not been built..
sch was fine.. i realise i forgot to put my design elements into my jounals!!
argh!! my god.. well.. nvm..
i wanna rest!! i'm tire... bt i cant..
juz sae bye to proj 3.. next week.. final proj is comin!! oh god!!
LET ME HAVE A BREAK... please!!
simplefern
Friday, November 25, 2005
:)
proj finalli over.. i managed to finish everithg on time.. :pbt i realise i neglect mani ppl..
i hate myself.. i hate dis course.. i hate design!!!!
y m i here? argh.. i hv no idea..
:( quarrels n quarrels n quarrels..
no matter wif hu i quarrel wif..
i muz always be e' one hu gv in?
y m i always wrong?
wat is wrong wif dis world!!
wat is wrong wif my life?
can someone understand wat i feel? wat i wan?
gastric is killing me.. cramps r killing me..
pain killers will onli make mi die earlier..
make mi addict to them..
bt hu cares? nobody..
I’m fighting so hard to hang on,
when my heart is fighting so hard to let go.......
simplefern
-haiz-
haiz.. someone plz tell mi wat to do..i'm confuse.. i'm lost.. i dunno where i shld go..
cryin n cryin dun help animore..
it's hurt.. v hurt..
y is tt always wen i need someone to be there..
to support me.. to guide mi along..
u'll always not there?
i'm not as strong as u all think..
i'm not as happi as u all think..
appearance cant tell everithg..
dun always think ppl look down on u..
ppl will onli look down on ppl hu look down on themselves..
i'm tire.. shld i gv up?
i'm confused!!!!!!!!!!!
can someone plz understand me?
i wanna shout bt cant..
i wanna scream.. bt cant..
i wanna cry.... bt cant..
oh plz.. plz tell me wat i can do?
i realli hv no idea y i m here..
life is like.. meaningless..
they sae they love me.. they dote on me..
they dote on them more.. love n care for them more..
he told me he loves me..
he throw his temper on me wen he's unhappi..
he sae all e' hurtful thgs..
can someone plz be more understanding?
simplefern
Thursday, November 24, 2005
-no title-
finalli.. comin to an end.. tml is submission..i'm almost done.. n same to my other DLA frenz..
wahaha.. :p 1st time sia..
finalli.. i can slack before sub.. i can slp!! haha.. :)
cuz.. NO MODEL dis time.. :p
simplefern
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
argh!
i'm always sick durin submission period!!argh!! realli cannot take it animore..
need slp again.. had med.. feel so slpy..
been pukin n shittin!!
dis reminds me of serenity..
argh!! i dun wan!!
stress is comin i think..
well. need slp badli.. nite..
simplefern
Monday, November 21, 2005
gastric is killin me..
think goin to e' doc later..
med didn help!!
was hm earli.. dear came to fetch me..
i need slp.. before startin proj..
i hate dis.. esp durin submission period!!
it's juz dis fri.. i'll be bz dis weekend!! oh my!!
argh! help me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm dyin soon!!
feel so lost suddenli.. feel so sad suddenli..
feel so loneli suddenli...
i hate dis feelin!!
i'm a bad bad girl..
a person wif attitude.............
need slp now..
I know well what I am fleeing from
but not what I am in search of.
simplefern
think goin to e' doc later..
med didn help!!
was hm earli.. dear came to fetch me..
i need slp.. before startin proj..
i hate dis.. esp durin submission period!!
it's juz dis fri.. i'll be bz dis weekend!! oh my!!
argh! help me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm dyin soon!!
feel so lost suddenli.. feel so sad suddenli..
feel so loneli suddenli...
i hate dis feelin!!
i'm a bad bad girl..
a person wif attitude.............
need slp now..
I know well what I am fleeing from
but not what I am in search of.
simplefern
do u think i had changed?
i had been slackin..
i'm confused..
i'm no longer e' fernny i noe..
i'm no more caring..
i'm no more helpful..
i'm no more cheerful
smile of mine r all fake!
m i realli happi? no.. not at all..
i'm juz like a useless person..
i cant think of ani nice idea for my layout..
no nice design..
i realise.. proj made me lost contact wif mani frenz..
when they tok 2 me..
i'm always busy..
not tt i dun wanna tok to them..
bt i need to concentrate..
can u plz teach me how to plan my schedule well?
i hate e' feelin of ppl leavin me..
y is there so mani illness?
cancer.. no cure..
ppl ard me.. plz.. plz.. god plz bless them..
they need ur blessing..
hopefully.. goin for op does help..
simplefern
haven start on cad!! omg..
fri is submission.. bt i'm still not stress!!
thgs had changed...
i quarreled wif er jie in e' mornin.. i hate tt.. no one understand me!!
do they care for me?
y m i always wrong?
y m i here?
izzit true tt it's wrong to hv me here?
simplefern
i had been slackin..
i'm confused..
i'm no longer e' fernny i noe..
i'm no more caring..
i'm no more helpful..
i'm no more cheerful
smile of mine r all fake!
m i realli happi? no.. not at all..
i'm juz like a useless person..
i cant think of ani nice idea for my layout..
no nice design..
i realise.. proj made me lost contact wif mani frenz..
when they tok 2 me..
i'm always busy..
not tt i dun wanna tok to them..
bt i need to concentrate..
can u plz teach me how to plan my schedule well?
i hate e' feelin of ppl leavin me..
y is there so mani illness?
cancer.. no cure..
ppl ard me.. plz.. plz.. god plz bless them..
they need ur blessing..
hopefully.. goin for op does help..
simplefern
Sunday, November 20, 2005
-no title-
i'm suppose to do my cad now.. by wat m i doin? argh..haven start on cad!! omg..
fri is submission.. bt i'm still not stress!!
thgs had changed...
i quarreled wif er jie in e' mornin.. i hate tt.. no one understand me!!
do they care for me?
y m i always wrong?
y m i here?
izzit true tt it's wrong to hv me here?
simplefern